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  Claiming Her Heart

  A Feral Breed Novel

  Ellis Leigh

  CLAIMING HER HEART

  A FERAL BREED NOVEL

  We were in hell the night we met, but a handful of years later, heaven is almost in reach. I just need to break my guardians’ suffocating hold on me, find a career, and convince my mate he’s better off staying human than becoming a shapeshifter like me.

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  When a bear shifter seeking someone to handle a little B&E falls into my path, I know it’s more than a job I’m signing on for. It’s a total life change. One that could cost me my mate if I fail…or if I succeed. But how can I turn down my one shot to get everything I want? Quick answer…

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  I can’t.

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  PROLOGUE

  If there was one thing I’d learned in the time since my family was slaughtered, it was that no one was safe. Not the packs, not the leaders, not mated pairs. And my mate? He was a human teenager—a blind one at that—yet he owned my heart from the moment I saw him. But I’d already lost so much. I couldn’t trust the fates to keep us together, couldn’t trust anyone to keep him safe. That would be my job, even though our guardians stood in our way.

  I knew from the second I felt the connection between us that the next few years would be a challenge. I only hoped he was up for it, and that I had the courage to follow through in the end.

  ONE

  Angelita

  I raced past the trees, my claws digging into the soil with every step. Running, jumping, desperate for more speed. To be closer. To reach him. To make sure he was safe. A need that never left me, never released me from its clutches. An obsession, really. Not that anyone could have blamed me for it. Not after everything I’d been through. Not since I’d found him.

  My Julian.

  We’d been in hell the first time we’d met. Conflict had been brewing in the shifter community, and it’d come to a head one fateful July. Enemies of the establishment, of the very thoughts and ideals our government tried to uphold, had surrounded us. Had initiated a battle to overturn the government so they could reframe our laws to better serve their own interests. My adopted family—the ones who’d taken me in after the same enemies had slaughtered my entire pack—had been in the thick of the battle, fighting for the good side. Fighting for their lives and mine.

  On the night everything about shifter life and law had been under attack, I’d found my mate. My very human mate, of course, because the fates had a wicked sense of humor. Four months after a forced shift had locked me into my wolf form, when I’d still been struggling with recovering my human side, a human had come into my world and reset every expectation and desire I’d ever known. The fates must have thought it was hilarious to put a shifter girl stuck as her beast and a human man with no sight together. Must have loved making such a deep connection between two people who couldn’t have been more different. Not that it mattered. He was mine.

  From the moment I’d caught his scent and tracked him down in the kitchens at Merriweather Fields, to the hours of being locked in a safe room with the other youths and humans—the beings who couldn’t or wouldn’t fight the evil out on the lawn—I’d known. And those hours had changed me—rebuilt the fear inside of me and tore it back down. I’d struggled to stay in that moment. To not be dragged back to the memories of another battle that’d occurred on lands so very different from the Midwestern prairie-like state I’d ended up in. I’d fought past the crippling panic for one reason—Julian He’d needed me to protect him. To be his eyes for him. To watch out for him.

  Our enemies had tried to start a war, and they’d failed. I would not fail Julian.

  But that was then, the past. Over and done with. Today, we’d be reuniting after another separation. It’d been too long—nearly four months—since I’d been to the little house in the woods where he lived. Sixteen weeks of lonely nights and lackluster days baking under the Texas sky while Julian stayed tucked away in Michigan. Too long. Way too long. Though, visits over the past year or so had been much more frequent than at the start of our relationship.

  See, the problem with being seen as a child, especially one with as brutal of a past as mine, was that everyone assumed it was their duty to protect you. I may have only been sixteen when I met my fated mate, but that didn’t lessen the need to be close to him. To know where he was and what he was doing. The distance between us had been anguish, the fact that I couldn’t reach the human inside of me pure destruction to my heart. I’d lived and died for the times when my mother-replacement, Sariel, would video call the sister of my mate so I could watch, so I could hear. So I could know he was okay.

  Long after the night at Merriweather Fields, the one where president Blasius Zenne beat back a coup most shifters would have surrendered over, my guardians had stayed in overprotective mode. Well, one had. The other was on my side, which had caused far more problems than I’d ever intended.

  “You have to let her go.”

  “She’s a child, Sariel. A child.” Bez sounded angry as he argued with his mate. Something that had been happening more often every week. Something that was my fault. “We don’t know that boy, and you want me to simply send Angelita to his home and let them run amok?”

  “Oh, you and your amok. Amok, amok, amok.” Sariel’s light footsteps came in waves, her pacing evident from where I sat huddled in a closet, eavesdropping. She only paced when she was angry. “They’re mates, Bez. Just like us. They feel that connection to one another. Charlotte said Julian was beside himself when you told him he couldn’t come for the Thanksgiving break.”

  “It’s a timing issue. We’re already heading up to Michigan to spend Christmas with the Feral Breed. He can wait the extra month.”

  There was a long silence, a drawn-out pause where nothing from the other side of the wall could give me an idea of what was happening. But silence wasn’t meant to last. When Sariel spoke again, the softness of her voice, the pain behind every word, gutted me.

  “She whimpers, Bez. When they have to end their computer calls. She cries for her mate.”

  “Sariel—”

  “It’s been months since they were together.”

  Bez’s growl shocked me enough to make me back away from the wall.

  “She’s only sixteen,” he said, the words difficult to discern beneath the rumble of his anger.

  But Sariel wasn’t afraid of him. I doubted there was much of anything that scared her anymore after her own experiences with the men who’d taken her. “And she’s been through so much.”

  Bez sighed, one of those deep, frustrated ones that meant he was cracking. “Fine. Two days. We’ll go up this month for two days.” More silence, the creak of the floor as someone moved. Perhaps as they stepped closer to one another. “He’d better be on his best behavior. If I hear one whisper of inappropriateness—”

  “She’s still stuck in wolf form,” Sariel said, her voice softer than before. “They’ll behave.”

  “They’d better, or I’ll kill him myself.”

  Biting back my snarl that night had been one of the hardest things I’d ever done. I loved Bez, I really did, but that was the night I decided things had to change. That was when I’d started plotting and practicing—scheming, even.

  After that visit and the one that coincided with the human holiday of Christmas, Julian and I had spent five months apart. Five solid months of wishing we could be together but with Bez standing in our way. In preparation for the plan I had come up with—the only one I saw working to give Julian and me a future together on our own terms—I’d started sneaking out o
f the house. Then through the woods. Then off the compound.

  The first time I’d stepped foot outside of Bez’s Texas property without his permission, I’d experienced a rush of adrenaline like no other. It had pushed me on. Encouraged me. Had fed me something that would become an addiction. The rush had also made me realize I could sneak. I could slip past the guardians around me if I needed to. And I had needed to.

  But first, I’d needed to break through the wall between my wolf and my human side.

  It had taken another eight months—long, slow months of wishing and waiting and missing my mate—for me to finally shift human. I hadn’t been able to do it alone. No, I’d needed the help of an unlikely ally. A witch who was mated to one of the Feral Breed Motorcycle Club shifters. She’d jumped in to help me, and in turn, had taught me the old stereotypes shifters had about others in the shadowy world of the paranormal were just that. Stereotypes. Without Scarlett, I wouldn’t have been able to move from the wolf world into the human one. I wouldn’t have had a relationship with my mate. I owed her. Hugely.

  Once I’d rediscovered my humanity, my sneaking around had become more focused, more direct. I’d escaped every chance I could to be able to call Julian, to use a computer to video chat with him. The town Bez lived outside of might have been small, but there was a library and two different restaurants with computers accessible. Well, technically, customers were supposed to go there during business hours and pay to rent them, but I hadn’t been able to do that. So I’d found another way. I’d figured out how to tell if a building was alarmed, how to work with the wires and receivers to gain access where I wasn’t supposed to be. I’d researched ways to pick locks and open locked windows, and I’d learned how to bypass simple motion detectors. I spent many hours sitting in the dark in buildings thought safe from such things, talking to the one person I was definitely supposed to be with on computers that weren’t mine. I’d justified my actions with my need to see and hear Julian. He’d always been the reason, the impetus for my actions. My love for Julian had turned me into a thief. A good one.

  And finally, a few years after that fight I’d listened into—months upon months of separation and struggle—I was close enough to taste my mate on the air. If only I could run faster.

  Two wolves chased after me, trying to keep up. Not that they could. Not with the sort of motivation I had fueling my pace. My head filled with images of all the things that could have gone wrong since I’d been forced on to the plane. Coming north by car was easier because I had my phone. I could stay in contact with Julian. On a plane? With no Wi-Fi? Impossible. We’d been disconnected for hours, and he didn’t answer the quick text I’d sent him once we landed. That wasn’t like him—he always answered me. He could be hurt, taken, missing…killed.

  Lost to me just like the family I’d once had.

  I ducked lower, pumping my legs harder, too anxious to give up even a single second of this trek. I needed to be there, to get to him, to make sure he was okay.

  The scent of shifter greeted me as I crossed the property line into Rebel’s territory. Nearer now, almost there. I didn’t ease my pace, though. He was just ahead, my mate; I could sense him. So close. So, so close. I raced around a stand of trees that blocked the view of the property from the street, and the house appeared, modest and glowing bright in the shadow of the forest. Small but charming, this place had been my home when I’d visited, when I had been allowed to stay close to my mate. Rebel and Charlotte’s house. The one where they’d brought a son into the world just six months ago. Where little Elijah slept in his crib in what had once been my mate’s room.

  But what caught my attention and held it, what I couldn’t look away from, was the garage. The small building out back with the staircase leading up to the second-floor apartment. The one with dark windows and no sign of life inside. Julian’s home…looking empty. He had to be in the house.

  Rebel opened the front door of the cottage before I reached the porch, a smile on his face.

  “Good evening, Angelita.”

  I pushed past him as Bez and Sariel stepped onto the porch. My guardians shifted human, accepting cloaks from Rebel to hide their nakedness. I traipsed past them all and into the house, sniffing hard, pacing when I couldn’t find Julian in any of the normal spots. Why wasn’t he waiting for me?

  “Hey, Angelita,” Charlotte said as I padded into the kitchen. Baby Elijah sat on her hip, drooling and reaching for me. I loved the kid, but I had more important things to do at the moment. Had someone I desperately needed to find. I paused, looking up at Julian’s sister, hoping she could tell me where to go.

  “Hi, Charlotte,” Sariel said as she walked in behind me. The two women greeted each other with hugs while I waited, impatient. Sariel cooed and laughed as baby Elijah reached for her, as his chubby hands met her face. She took him from his mother, both women beaming. And ignoring me.

  Finally, Charlotte took pity on my whimpers. “He’s in the apartment over the garage.”

  I took off for the door, ignoring Rebel’s smirk as he held it open for me. Around the house, over the gravel driveway, and to the stairs leading up the side of the garage. How my mate traversed these every day, I had no idea. He couldn’t see. And though I knew he was independent and able to do almost everything on his own, I worried. I would always worry.

  When I reached the door, I jumped up, using my claws to scratch at the metal surface. Stupid round handle. If it were a lever, I could open it myself. If it weren’t locked. Would he have the door locked? No, he wouldn’t do anything to keep me away from him. He had to know I was here, that I was coming today. He had to—

  The door swung inward, and every ounce of tension within my body drained as my soul refocused on just one thing. One person. Julian.

  I shifted human without effort, without thought, without even trying. Arms around his neck, my body pressed to his, I breathed him in. Covered him so my scent would be all over his clothes and skin. So my wolf would finally settle, knowing her mate was there.

  He was safe.

  He was mine.

  And no one would be coming between us ever again.

  I hadn’t become a thief just to chat. I’d become a thief to have a future with Julian. And to hell with anyone who dared to stand in our way now.

  TWO

  Julian

  As afternoon turned to evening, I sat on the edge of the mattress, fisting the sheets to stay in place. To not go running off into the woods on a hunch, on a feeling. On the surety that I’d find Angelita. I could feel her already, sense the gap between us growing smaller with every second. She was close. Close enough that my body responded to her, my heart racing and my blood rushing to my dick.

  The instinct to claim, to mate, to drive myself inside her body and join us forever wasn’t just a wolf thing. I felt it, too. Always had with her. Always would.

  Usually, I’d be in the house when Angelita arrived. Standing beside my sister and her husband, I’d fret and fidget until she hit the porch before I raced outside, needing to reach her right away. But this time, we needed privacy. Hell, we deserved it too. We had a lot of things to talk about. Future things, plans, all the options there were to keep us together from now on. Plus, I couldn’t be so hard and needy for her in front of my sister and Angelita’s guardians. There would be no hiding it this time. I’d always been able to control myself around others in the past, knowing we couldn’t be together that way. Knowing I had to wait for her. But she was eighteen finally. We were adults in the eyes of the law, though not yet in the eyes of the people who had helped raise us. Still, it was time to sit down and talk as adults. To act as adults. To do…adult things.

  My heart jumped the second I heard her claws on the steps outside. My Angelita was finally home. I stood, heading for the door, knowing she couldn’t open it. Not like that. Not as her wolf. She must have been in a rush to have forgotten to shift. She did that sometimes still—stayed in her wolf form until the last possible second. She’d shift
for me, though. Once her wolf saw me, she’d change forms.

  The second her claws scraped against the steel of the door, I yanked it open. Her scent destroyed me, enveloping me completely in a nanosecond. I couldn’t see her, but I didn’t need to. I’d felt her coming, and I could still feel her. Feel the pull to her that was something I’d never quite gotten used to. Feel the way she made my heart burn when she was close to me. The pull to grab her, hold her, leave not an inch of space between us. I could smell her, hear her breath, feel the energy rolling off her… Carnal and wild. She was my angel, my soul mate, my love. Everything I needed in life was wrapped up in her little body. I didn’t need my sight to recognize her—I knew every bit of her without ever having to see an inch.

  Her fur brushed along my legs, and I smiled, the sensation tickling. The next second, skin replaced fur, and my amazing Angelita wrapped her human form around my body. Her naked human form. This girl tested every ounce of my willpower and always had.

  “Leelee.” My nickname for her came out on a sigh of its own accord. I couldn’t have held it back any more than I could stop my body from responding to hers. I grabbed her close, loving the feel of warm, soft skin under my hands. Breathing in the scent of rain and forest and girl. So much girl.

  No… Woman.

  “Julian.” Her shaky, whispered voice saying my name broke me. I grabbed her legs, hoisting them up around my waist and slammed the door behind her. This woman, this amazing, beautiful, soulful woman knew exactly how to push me past my limits in all the best ways, and I would never be separated from her again. I’d battle the whole shapeshifter population if I had to. She was mine.